After finishing my degree i wonder and dreamt that i will get a good job...
But thats not what happen to me... I'm a loser that don't want to move on...that's me...
After a while i stay at home i start become lazy and not believe to my faith anymore.... everything that i try not give a good feedback.. I start give up...
And when i give up my level of confidence and self esteem also become low as it can..
I hate to get out from my house..my life is about my mama, my sis, my niece and my grand mother...when someone come to my house i start feel the burden when people ask me what will i be...i work as a what... I hate all those question... Even when my close relative come to my house i felt like want to hide...
Now i become worst..i start to argue with my mama, my sis and my grand mother....everything they did i felt that they do a wrong thing...eventhough i know its my mistake...
Almost every day i having a hard day....i hate when i'm not normal...my temper level so high... If someone touch my thing i will shouted as loud as i can...
Last night i talk to my bestfriend, she tell that i need to get a social life, control my temper, close to ALLAH, get a job...even though its a rm 400 job..don't care if it a just stupid job...as long as i can work and have a social life... The most important thing muhasabah diri....that why i love her..eventhugh she know that i will start raising my temper she know how to tackle me and start with the topic..
What i know for things to change i need to change my self first....
