School life...

when i look at the students....remind me to my old time...
wahhh...memories...
if i could go back...
hahahaha...
mmg xkan la nak jadi...
past will be history..
based on the past we learnt and become who we are right now..
so this is me the present me...
i don't know the future of myself..
what will i be..

today Alhamdullillah everything went well..
i'm counting the day to finish my practicum..
i admit that i will miss my students
but that's life..
apa saja jadi ada hikmah..
tgk student suma nya happy..
tp student zaman skarang ni up to date..
zaman kita dulu2 mana la ada brani nk melawan cikgu..
nak merokok dekat2 sekolah
nak tido dalam kelas
makan dalam kelas
mmg xbrani...
kena sayang cikgu macam sayang mama kita..

tp bila aku jadi cikgu ni aku paham apa yg cikgu marah sangat...
expecially bila student kurang ajar...
bila pikiaq balik aku ni pun sama naik ja..
dulu bukan baik sangat..
sory cikgu cikgi ngn teacher2 yg pernah ngajar saya..

harini rasa tenang...
dapat rasa doa seorang ibu with me..
so mama..
thanks for becoming a supportive mother ever...
love u..

ok list to do tonight...
lesson plan...friday...monday..tuesday 2..wednesday...thursday 2...friday 2...sempat ker?
ntah...hehehehe...not confident at all...
ok dah nak p buat..
bye2 my lovely blog...

ada hikmah apa yang berlaku...

Assalamualaikum...
Ya Allah Ya tuhan ku...maha besar ujian yang kau berikan kepada hamba mu ini...
sangat bersedih sekarang...
sebab....
banyak sangat...mama cakap kita gagal makna nya kita belajar...
ya allah kenapa hati aku sangat sedih ni...

Kenapa kau perlu muncul di waktu aku dah lupa dekat hang...
we are history..u and i would be nothing...
ok u get married so what the problem...
kenapa aku sedih sangat...
maybe aku sedeh sbb aku tak kahwin?
tu soalan untuk budak LOSER...
aku xsedih sbb tu la....
aku sedeh sbb awat hang nak kaco kehidupan aku...
i'm happy right now..i have my life and you have yours...

cukup la apa yg hang buat kat aku tu kan..
xcukup lagi ka nak bagi hati aku ranap punah...
xcukup lagi ka nak musnahkan kehidupan aku...
xcukup lagi ka bagi aku nangis sbb hang tiap2 malam..
x cukup lagi ka yg kata2 manis hang gtau aku...
ok enough...
now i'm new Siti Fatihah...
don't u ever dare to touch or hurt me...

now stop...aku boleh hidup la...
i still me..so Alhamdullillah hang dah kahwin..tahniah..good...
cuma satu ja...aku xmungkin boleh tgk hang dah...i rather let u go..just go...
u with ur life...mine with my life...

i still have my family..my mommy..
i have ALLAH...
i have my friends..
i'm be able to live alone..
by the way i need to thanks you..
if you didn't do like this..
i won't experience the real meaning of love..
thanks...

everything happen ada hikmah dia...
so i take its positive side...
insyaallah ada yg lebih baik untuk aku...
xpa..xmati la hidup sorang2..ingat appreciate the people that love us..
so i love my family...

ok skarang aku sgt rindu mama..
rasa nak sangat dekat mama...
tp minggu lepas baru ja balik..
mcm xblh la nk balik tiap2 minggu..
i still depend on my mother..
pity kat mama..
mama dh la ibu tunggal..
so let it be..
i need to be strong in order to be someone better..

Terima Kasih heart-breaker...saya xnak doa yg xbaik dekat awak..
tp biar Allah tentukan semuanya..awak dgn hidup awak..
saya hidup saya...
ok la nak tidur...
esok nak kena mulakan hari dengan senyuman...

tenangkan hati dengan berzikir..insyaallah akan rasa perbezaan tu.. 

Assalamualaikum...

assalamualaikum...
tergerak hati nk tgk blog ni...
apa dh jadi...hmmm boleh bukak lagi lagi rupa nya...
pejam celik..pejam celik...
aku dh nak habis blajaq dh...
what i'm finishing studying...

bagusla sgt kan...dari student upgrade jadi penganggur...
ok skarang aku mula question my self what will i become for another 5 years..
banyak sgt dalam otak ni...
sekarang ni i'm struggling with my practicum..
ya la mengajar form 4 and form 5..
what did you expect..
i'm scared that i'm fail..

ok point pertama yg merisau kan aku...
about my practicum..
the students was not a big problem...
the biggest problem are ME
my self...
aku ni boleh ka handle myself expecially in observation..
my lecturer opinion about my teaching skills..
the most important task...
my record book...
my journal
my material
what will i teach on the day of observation?
benda mcm ni pun stressing me out...
aku dh buat sehabis bagus ka?
student dapat input x dari aku?
YA ALLAH KAU PERMUDAHKAN LAH URUSAN HIDUP KU....

ok second things that make me stress...
i felt empty....my heart need someone..
i'm start thinking about relationship..
until when i will have the status 'single and available'...
i also want to change my status...
i have to admit that  i jealous when i know some of my friends are getting married and engage..
my phase of life still the same..
mama pun dh start talking about married things with me...
i know my mom want the best to her daughter..
mama tau x anak mama ni xla cantik sangat..burk ja pun..
so nak dpat jodoh tu susah sikit..
ingat x seksa ka tgk org ada life dgn someone..
kita dgn no one..
hahaha..namapk pathetic sangat...
xpa la..maybe jodoh aku ALLAH nak yg terbaik untuk hambanya..
semua yang jadi mesti ada hikmah..
YA ALLAH YA TUHAN KU..kau permudah kan lah jodoh ku..amin...

ok sudah2 emo plak kan...muka dh macam batu..tapi hati ada taman...
hahahahahaha....
tapi thats life kan...
ok benda yga merungsingkan aku...
MONEY..DUIT...
mana mau cari maaa....
keja la kan....
ok nak keja kena ada kelayakan..
nak tunggu ada kelayakan as BACHELOR IN EDUCATION TESL...
i need to wait for another 8 month...
hahahaha...
sapa kata senang nak dapat segulung ijazah tu...
ok plan untuk dapat duit...
1. kahwin suruh laki support------mmg xla kan...boipren pun xdak...
2.jadi maid kat umah mama support-----xtergamak lak kan...
3.keja ja kedai makan mana2...----xsuka handle pelanggan,gedik gila...
4.apply jadi cikgu ganti----insyaallah akan ku usul kan..
5.keja office ja..apply ja kat mana2----akan ku cuba jugak..
6.sambung jahit baju---boleh la part time kan..
ok la yang paling penting..the biggest key point..jangan MALAS...
kalau kita rajin dengan apa pun kita boleh survive..
aku salute la budak2 skolah aku ni..
depa ni 16 tahun tp dorg sangat hebat expecially in bekerja..
aku 16 tahun pun duk celah ketiak mama lagi..hehehe..
YA ALLAH KAU BUKAKKAN LAH PINTU REZEKI HAMBA MU INI...AMINNN....

sebenarnya la kan sy sayang pelajar2 saya...
hehehehe...budak2 ni badan ja besar tp kan otak tu masih budak2...
comel kut..xkira laki atau perempuan..
dorg ni naughty la ckit...tp i still can handle it..nakal xbermakna kurang ajar...
kalo nak cerita ttg student masyaallah panjang berjela kut...
setiap hari mesti ada cerita baru...
setiap orang ada kisah dorang..
everyone have their own story...
but apa yg mencabar nya...macam mana kita nak tackle student ni jadi macam kawan kita..
tp at the same time as our students..respect us...respect kita as a teacher..
YA ALLAH YA TUHANKU KAU BERI LA PELAJAR KU ILMU YANG BERMAFAAT UNTUK MEREKA....

ni my picture as a teacher at SEK MEN KEB JALAN KEBUN

 Excited dapat main game...ni la bilik yg kami decorate...

bila dh sgt lapar i will do something to make me didn't think about food... 

 i miss her...she is my supporter my lover and my everything..

 this school ada smiley day...senyum suma...

one of the class yg i teach..